Unexpected blessings

As I sit here, wondering if this is something I should post, I am reminded at how wonderfully blessed we are. Its almost disturbing that it seems to take something devastating to make me realize how good life really is. Many would think that I am a major over reactor and that this is not as big of a deal as Im making it, but I cant help but be worried. I am a worrier and I know that worrying doesnt do any good, but thats just me. I am so grateful that I have friends that are praying for me and after talking with e few of them, I realize that I am not alone in my journey. Apparently, this is not uncommon. And that does make me feel better to know that not only are they praying, but they can give me honest advice because they have been in my shoes. So Im sure youre wondering by now what is going on....

Well, I went to the doctor last week and during my appointment, he found a lump(Im sure I dont have to go into detail for you to figure out what Im talking about). After a very long, nerve wracking week, my mammogram was rescheduled for today instead of tomorrow because the weather is supposed to get bad. So I went today and they did the mammo. They emailed it to the radiologist immediately and he said that looked ok, but the he wanted to do an ultrasound. So I sat there for 1/2 and hour and the tech did the ultrasound. It seemed to take forever. When it was all said and done, she wouldnt tell me anything...which I understand but didnt really help me at all. And wouldnt you know it, the radiologist was at lunch...so I wasnt able to get a report. Im worried because,it was supposed to be just the mammo...so even though the radiologist said it looked fine, I am wondering if the ultrasound was because he was unsure, or if it was just protocol. I have been calling my doctors office all day, probably driving them crazy, but I was hoping that the radiologist would have faxed him a report and that he would be able to tell me something, but as of 4:30...they didnt have it. So Im still waiting...and its driving me crazy!! I know that there is an 80% chance everything is ok...and no I do not really think I have cancer, but I just can't let it go until I know for sure.

I know that this is a personal thing and maybe it shouldnt be posted, but I feel like maybe if I had known all the things I know now, after the fact, it would have been a lot easier to deal with.Plus, I know that not everyone will read this so it will be limited to some of my closest friends. Life is short...and you just never know. What I can say without a doubt is that this has really opened my eyes to how wonderful God really is and how much he has blessed me. We seem to take each day for granted and each day, good or bad, is a blessing. I have realized how important family is and just being with the ones I love is the most important thing of all. God blessed me with a wonderful and supportive husband and some truly awesome kids. And if He can do all that despite all the things I've done in my life, I know He can bring me through this. Believe it or not, I am trying to stay positive. I have been looking for some inspirational verses to help me through this rough patch. And I hope that maybe, if you find yourself in a similar situation or id you just feel down...that these can help you too.

Be strong and bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes with you; he will not fail you or forsake you.

Deuteronomy 31:6

Do not fear, for I am with you, do not be afraid, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed.

2 Corinthians 4:7-9

Uphold me according to your promise, that I may live, and let me not be put to shame in my hope.

Psalm 119:116

Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye wastes away from grief, my soul and body also.

Psalm 31:9

Our soul waits for the Lord; he is our help and shield.

Psalm 33:20

Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress; he sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from destruction. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind.

Psalm 107:19-21

Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—

who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

Psalm 103:1-5